strawberrychick.livejournal.comi have a problem. my vagina doesn't like me much. at least not lately. I have never successfully used a tampon before and when i went to my doctor to get a prescription for birth control earlier this week (for a variety of reasons) she tried to do a pap smear, but was unable to get in because although my body was completely relaxed, i am just far too tight down there for even the little sized things. She recommended that i start using tampons to get my body used to having something in there, because when i decide to have intercourse it "is going be very painful and difficult." She said i should try it and if she can't do the pap smear next appt (2 months) we'd talk about going to a gyno and she said something about vaginal dialators. but everything looked okay from what she could tell. I have previously tried to insert a tampon, but to no avail. but body just wouldn't have it. So yesterday i started the lovely process of gushing blood and i decided to try using a tampon, but it HURT and would not go in. i got it in a bit, but not far enough and i had this incredible urge to pee so i took it out [or more accurately, my vaginal muscles went crazy and "spit" it out]. but i still felt very sensitive down there for a couple hours after and i felt like i had to keep emptying my bladder almost every hour.
This morning i decided to try again, because i am going to be back at school for my next cycle and i would rather be feeling uncomfortable at home than in a bathroom that i share with thirty other girls.I pulled out the box of playtex slimfits i purchased yesterday and gave it a go. In my first attempt, i was very close, but it didn't go in far enough. there was no pain however, so i decided to try one more time. this time i got it in! it's far enough in and for the first second everything seemed fine, but then my body once again decided it just doesn't want it in there! The problem is that's it's far enough in that it's not going anywhere while it's still dry. it evidently got in, expanded and is firm set on staying there. but this is causing me much pain. my body is not happy with it inside of me and my entire vaginal region feels like it's on fire, i get these stabbing pains whenever i try to move [or even while lying still] and every couple minutes my body tries to have these contractions to spit it back out again. for the last two hours i have been sitting in the bathroom with all my muscles relaxed [that's the only position that's not completely painful] with the painful contraction type things every few minutes. i'm really hoping the tampon will just saturate with blood and i'll be able to remove it, but it's not happening. the string is currently all bloody and gross because when my body has these spasms it tries to spit blood and other fluids to get the tampon out. also, when i try to pull on the string i can feel the tampon hitting a barrier [my hymen most likely] and it refuses to be pulled out. painpainpain. i've heard of people having to go to the emergency room to get things removed, but a tampon? also, i really don't think i'm in a condition to drive because i can't even sit here and type this without lots of pain and i keep running to the bathroom every few minutes.
Has anyonre had an experience similar to this or have any suggestions/advice/know ANYTHING that can put me out of this misery? thanks.