simhasurya.livejournal.comHi everybody! I'm new here, also new to the sex life world, and I have a lot of little questions here and there below. If you would all be so kind in reading this. I need a bit of help/ advice. I read the past entries looking for ladies' similar experiences but still, I haven't found the advice I'm looking for. Sorry if I mention anything that has come up over 1,0000000000+ times! I know it can be annoying! Sorry in Advance! :)
I am 20 years old... I have been dating my boyfriend for about 4 months now and I had sex for my first time on New Years eve. I wasn't drunk or anything, it just happened to be that evening. It took so long for us to have sex together because I was never able to get over my fear of entry, I ran him through a huge goose chase, many fights would arise, many tears, many feelings of inadequacy because I was extremely afraid of it hurting...A lot of the times we've tried to have sex my legs do this thing where they tense up completely which cause my hips to tilt to the left, causing him to not get in me AT ALL do to the strange angle. The action is literally uncontrollable and involuntary. I tighten every single muscle in my body, resisting him. I don't mean to do that, I just could never get myself to relax. So anyway, I got over that fear *just a little* New Years and he entered me just fine. I was actually on my period, so I wasn't completely wet which I was surprised because I figured it would have hurt a lot more if I wasn't as wet as I usually get. SO, He took it very gently, as I've never had sex before, never had tampons, toys, let alone my own fingers penetrating me before (Afraid of the pain all those times...) (pathetic.. i know) so he knew exactly how to treat me, being very experienced and all. So, he'd go in with slow thrusts, until he was fully inside of me. There was this feeling of burning pressure like I had to pee, every time he'd go in a little deeper. I didn't have to pee, and a lot of people will say that it is an orgasm on the way, but I've had orgasms before which have never felt like pressure of needing to pee. So I am a little confused. I really hope that feeling eventually goes away because it's extremely uncomfortable for me.
Another half of my story= After we had sex, he was probably only inside of me completely for about maybe 6-10 minutes. It just got too uncomfortable to bear. So, after all that I noticed a burning/ sunburn pain down below every time I'd sit/ walk, I just assume it was a little sore from the first-time stretching that took place in my vagina. Am I correct? I found it a little strange to pee at first after he was inside of me. Alright, so he went on to work and the next day was the next time I was going to see him. We try at having sex again (the next day after, keep in mind) and he goes in half way and I feel EXCRUCIATING pain. We had to stop, causing him to get extremely frustrated with me, killing my joy of NOT being a Virgin anymore. I was fed up. I was afraid of it hurting again, back where I was WHEN I was a Virgin. I was afraid of going back to that stupid nervous-as-heck feeling.
Did I rush trying again? Was it too soon to try entry if I was sore from just yesterday? I was wondering if It hurt so bad ONLY because of that. I mean, if it hardly hurt me on New years, why was it hurting me AWFULLY the day after? I hope it doesn't keep giving me this grief every time I go to try it again. Here's the deal, I talked with a few of my close female friends and they told me they usually waited a couple days to a week until they tried sex again after loosing their virginity. My boyfriend is currently out of town until Tuesday. Is it true to wait a little while until you've healed? I still feel this burning sensation/ overheating sensation in my vagina/ outside the rim and this all took place a couple days back. I assume I just need to wait a little, then try again until I'm starting to feel a little better down there. As I type I can feel the stinging.
I'd like to know if my assumptions are correct, or if there is any feedback on any part of my story just so I can have a helping hand in all of this. I'd greatly appreciate any feedback. Also, if there is any advice for me on how to try and be more comfy or any suggestions on relaxation techniques, that'd be wonderful. This has been a real let down for me, sex is supposed to feel great and natural. I was feeling that on New years, I hope I can feel it again.
Thanks for reading, to anyone who read all this jibber jabber!!
ps- I tried many lj cut codes... I failed in that department too!
:) katie