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[biggieshorty05.livejournal.com]

well I was supposed to go to the gyno this Thrusday but i can't make it anymore cuz i'm so obnoxiously busy this week. So now i have to worry even longer :(

I have 2 little red bumps inside my vag. They don't irrate me that much really. I have no idea what they are but i just have to worry about it until i see my gyno :( dammit. I thought they were maybe zits but they don't pop, just bleed. They might also be cysts.. i have no idea really.

I donno what i'll do if i have an STD. I have no clue. I know i'll be extremely miserbale. Sometimes i think i have herpes but i really don't know. I get little headaches sometimes and i have those 2 bumps. Those are really the only symptoms I've noticed.

I apologize for this entry considering the fact that there are probably 287483256 other entries similar to this one. I'm sorry that its annoying and repetitive. I just can't help but worry about it like crazy. I'm so upset to the point where i think about suicide on a daily basis and i can't handle this anymore. I really can't.

*sigh* someone wish me luck or pray for me please :(

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[in-my-frame.livejournal.com]

take a deep breath, go to the doctor as soon as you can, and get it checked out.

if it was herpes, i *think* you'd have more than 2 bumps, and i *think* they'd be painful.

i don't know cuz i've never experienced herpes, but try to think positive.
i'll cross my fingers for you.

(side note: dane cook is the shit!)

[in-my-frame.livejournal.com]

'I'm so upset to the point where i think about suicide on a daily basis and i can't handle this anymore. I really can't.'

i was diagnosed with trich, about a year ago and i felt the same way. but i got it treated and i'm fine. i know herpes is a bigger deal, but it really doesnt sound like thats what it is.

good luck, sweets.

[fooltothink.livejournal.com]

Trich? As in trichotilomania? Me too. I still struggle with it.

[in-my-frame.livejournal.com]

no, trichomoniasis. i prob. didnt spell that right.

[jitteryladybug.livejournal.com]

ooh, trich look scary in the microscope... soooo many flagella!

[paperstar19.livejournal.com]

Are they actually INSIDE your vagina?

[makayasmom.livejournal.com]

I love your icon! That is a great movie. I had such a huge crush on David Bowie after I saw it.

[biggieshorty05.livejournal.com]

yeah. I mean when i spread the lips of my vagina open, i can see the little bumps.

[jitteryladybug.livejournal.com]

so you mean they're on the inside of your inner labia, or actually in your vagina?

[biggieshorty05.livejournal.com]

ahh..

I think the inside of my inner labia.

[biggieshorty05.livejournal.com]

Why do you do you ask anyway? You've been asking me a lot of questions... i mean do you know a lot about herpes? I'm not trying to sound like a bitch, i'm just wondering. It sounds like you're investigating it or something heh.

[makayasmom.livejournal.com]

I think if it was herpes, it would look more like a cold sore or canker sore. It might be warts. Is it hard, or soft? Do they hurt at all, or do they just bother you because you know they are there? Can you feel them pressing on the other side of your vagina? Do they burn, sting, or itch?

Please don't kill your self over this. If it is a STD, it can be taken care of. It's not the end of the world even though it may seem like it right now.

Do you routinely have a lot of stress in your life? The bumps may be related to that if you do, which means stressing about them will only make them worse. I know this is much easier said than done, but try to relax and don't think about it. Odds are it won't get any worse before you can get in to see someone, so please try to relax. :)
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[biggieshorty05.livejournal.com]

They really don't hurt hardly ever. It just bothers me that they're there. I can not feel them pressing on the other side of my vagina. They don't burn, or sting. It used to slightly itch but not really. I just notice that sometimes i experience pains down there.

And yes lately i have been stressed out of my mind :(

[fooltothink.livejournal.com]

Like everyone else said, go to the dr as soon as possible. Yeah, it might be hectic and busy, but make the time. Your health is more important.

And just take a breath and relax. And dont kill yourself. It may seem like an option now, but its not worth it. Really.

[jae1202.livejournal.com]

I've had similar bumps, but I know I'm STD free and they always seem to go away. I haven't asked my doctor about it, but you should. I'm sure it's nothing bad, probably just stress related.

[biggieshorty05.livejournal.com]

Do you know what the bumps were maybe?

By the way i like you're icon a lot.

[illria.livejournal.com]

♥!! I hope everything turns out fine for you! ♥ I understand about being so scared. Even if the worst of the worst of your current fears turns out true, remember you can be okay anyway.♥ Good luck.

Completely OT.

[nostalgic.livejournal.com]

DANE COOK <3