Increased HBC dosage makes me nervous.

[citrus00.livejournal.com]

Short, non-triggering version: I'm scared to go up a dose on HBC due to the side effects such as water retention and increased hunger, but I need to. I don't know how to handle my emotions.

( Body dismorphia )

Really confused :/

[thatcrazylaura.livejournal.com]

So i was with a guy ive been fooling around with and my best friend and her boyfriend, and we were all kind of experimenting, and so i tried stuff with my besty and we both went down on eachother while the guys watched, but then when we were done the guys joined in and we switched partners for a minute, i ended up in 69 position with my best friends bf, and he came all over my face withouth warning me. My guy friend only ended up going down on my besty and she didnt do anything to him. Long story short i am really atracted to my best friends boy friend now, idk if it was him cuming on me or what but i really like him now, i cant just ditch the guy ive been seeing for my best friends bf... Im so confused

Pregnancy Dreams?

[kkatie.livejournal.com]

Hey everyone,

I feel like this has been talked about before, but I couldn't find anything about it in the memories.

I'm 23, NP, and have been in a long term monogamous relationship with a male for over 3 years. Lately I keep having pregnancy dreams. Usually I just have a baby or give birth and the beginning of the dream and the dream has something to do with that baby. Last night I had one where I was very very pregnant and dress shopping (I have no idea) and then went into labor.

When I woke up and told my boyfriend about it he said, "Wow, another one? You've been averaging about 1 per week lately." (I didn't think it was that frequent, but apparently I've been telling him about my pregnancy dreams subconsciously at ~6AM when he wakes up for work.)

Basically, I want some reassurance that this is normal. I'm not ready for kids, I just got an IUD actually, but these dreams keep coming. I think it has something to do with my age but I was wondering if anyone else had some insight for me.

Thanks for your help!
Katie the Baby-Dreamer

oh goodness, the never-ending period (help!!!!)

[rileycostello.livejournal.com]

Hello lovely superstars.

I come to you in dire need of your oh-so-vast knowledge base on all things vag!

I was on depo in October. Went off, couldn't afford it (insurance stopped covering it). Went in for a consult originally for Essure, doctor thought Mirena would be better for me because of my wicked periods (foreshadowing!!). I agreed. That day- end of January probably, around the 25th? Started bleeding.

Originally, I was going to see the doctor in April to have Mirena done so my insurance would cover it. I had set up a consult in March to confirm the installation. In february (the 9th), after five solid weeks of bleeding constantly (and burning through lady-accessories super quickly), I called the doctor and said "help!". He suggested we install the Mirena since I was bleeding. We did.

THE BLEEDING DID NOT STOP OR LESSEN OR ANYTHING. By the time I went in for my month checkup (march 5th), the bleeding hadn't stopped or anything. The doctor didn't feel concerned, so I decided to wait it out. Come the end of march, it still hadn't changed, and at this point, I was not only having to use pads because of the IUD insertion (eugh), but i was burning through them fairly quickly. End of march I get into the doctor on an emergency appointment and the doctor decided to write me a scrip for birth control to try and "restart" my cycle. He also wanted me to get an ultrasound to make sure the IUD was in the right place and that there was nothing wrong, so I did. They did a transvaginal ultrasound and an exterior one and my results confirmed that the IUD is in the right place and that there are no cysts or things that are otherwise abnormal.

I just started day two of the second 30-day pack yesterday, so I've gone through an entire 30-day birth control pill cycle (it starts with a P?) with -no change-. I've had wicked cramps on and off through this, I've felt stabbing pain on and off; I take vicodin and naproxen every day anyway because of back-related health issues and even THOSE don't help the cramps.

I'm having blood that's bright red, smells strongly, and is very very fibrous- like... when I go pee, chunks fall out into the toilet sort of thing. I wipe, and it's... globby, thick, and slimy in addition to super-bloody. Does that make sense? I've had a few days where the cramps were so bad I was bawling (and couldn't sleep, etc) and the chunks that came out the next day were flesh-colored and very tissue-looking. Almost like... when you trim chicken breast fat off and it's firm, but still clear that it's tissue/fat, except mine is like a peach color, not yellow like chicken fat. I've had that happen twice (once on Easter and once a week ago), and both were fairly sizeable (probably about the size of a quarter once I picked at them with tweezers to be sure there wasn't anything weird(er) happening.

I've been going crazy obviously because not only is it gross (I'm not really comfortable with things coming out of my vagina, it grosses me out hardcore), but it's inconvenient, it's uncomfortable, and most importantly it's hindering my sex life (I will not have sex on my period as it's just a no-no-no zone for me).

Do you guys think that maybe my body is just flipping out trying to get itself righted after having been on Depo for ten years?

I talk to the doctor's office and there's not a whole lot they can do- the quantity of blood is not enough to warrant concern and apparently neither is the chunkiness- and he's already done all he can with the pills and stuff. Every time I call they think I want the IUD out and I don't- I want to keep that- I just want this awful infernal bleeding to stop.

So- here's where I beg and plead for your help- are there any 'natural' ways to stop this from being this way? When I look up this on the internet I get a ton of results but it's all different information- I thought maybe you all would have tried some and had some experiences worth noting.

I am still kinda hoping that it's just gonna wither up and fall out, though.

MMMMonday! Special edition: ticky box

[mangofandango.livejournal.com]

Hello and welcome to Mega Magical Meta Monday! On Mondays, we bring you special maintainer-curated content: guests posts, discussion topics, polls, giveaways, or whatever else we think would be interesting to you! The goal here is to enrich and diversify our discussions and membership, and to give you something fun/interesting/thought-provoking to read and talk about. This week, we bring you a poll about menstrual products! We have observed that our memebers are fans of polls (who doesn't love a ticky box?), and we also thought it might generate some discussion. So tell us, if you'd like to: what do you use? What's your favorite type of menstrual product, favorite brand, etc? What did you use when you first started menstruating, and how did you feel about menstrual products then versus now? What's with that blue liquid they use in commercials for pads? Do you have questions for users of a product you've never tried? We invite you to discuss anything and everything menstrual-product-related in the comments. :)

[Poll #1837426]

Slippery consent issues with boyfriend.

[relight-it.livejournal.com]

I have been turning the contents of this post over and over in my mind for a couple of months, and finally decided to just post it.

Outside of the bedroom, my partner is a perfect gentleman: charming, brilliant, funny, thoughtful, affectionate. We share great chemistry and the same sense of humor, and love each other's company. I am very happy to be with him.

But I do have a concern or else I wouldn't be here. It has to do with consent.

( I suspect most of this should go behind a cut, just in case. I don't know how to think about this... )

At-home yeast infection tests

[thinktink16.livejournal.com]

Any opinions on them? Are any of them accurate or are they not worth the money?

another update to difficulties with urination

[shibusa.livejournal.com]

um, I'll spare you the saga; this is the short version:
today I was in ER again, where an epic battle ensued between two nurses and my urethra. three hours and four catheter sizes later, they finally got the teeniest infant-sized one into me, and 575 ml of urine out of me.

victory, right?! I was pretty happy, myself.

but they let me go with strict instructions to call my (not so great) urologist TOMORROW and make them start taking this more seriously. I was like, ok, one day'll be fine. I went home, tried to pee a few hours later.

OW OW OW

they scratched up the inside of my uretha, and now whatever voiding ability I had has been lost because of my body's instinctive, "that really hurts, will stop!!" reaction.

how do I make it hurt less? how do I get a numbing agent in there? what numbing agents are safe?