Inexplicable shame
Dec. 18th, 2011 03:15 am![[identity profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/openid.png)
When I was a kid I somehow got the notion into my head that my girl-parts were indescribably icky and gross. I wouldn't touch them, even to shower, so I'm pretty lucky I didn't develop some sort of infection, now that I think of it. If I put my hands between my legs, even while clothed, I washed them compulsively.
I'm not sure why. I mean, my parents were never shaming or anything. I'm from Southern California, there were never any particularly creepy social messages I can think of. I didn't have generalized body image issues, and while I'm not the most gender-binary-conforming female bodied person out there, I'm mostly pretty in line with my bits.
I don't have any issues with it anymore, or at least none that are really outstanding.
I guess I just wanted to know if this happened to anyone else, or what you guys' thoughts were.
I'm not sure why. I mean, my parents were never shaming or anything. I'm from Southern California, there were never any particularly creepy social messages I can think of. I didn't have generalized body image issues, and while I'm not the most gender-binary-conforming female bodied person out there, I'm mostly pretty in line with my bits.
I don't have any issues with it anymore, or at least none that are really outstanding.
I guess I just wanted to know if this happened to anyone else, or what you guys' thoughts were.