Hello, VPers. As you're probably aware, from time to time the VP Team makes posts on behalf of people who wish to remain anonymous or who do not have LJ accounts. This is one such post. Thanks in advance for your helpful comments!
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Jocey
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I was tested about a month ago for HIV, and according to my PCP, the results were negative. I say "according" because my PCP, for lack of better words, is a pain in the ass. I even called today asking if I may have the blood work script with the results - to actually SEE it and ease my mind a little. Of course, I got forwarded to the secretary who was of no help what-so-ever, and couldn't, or shall I say, WOULD NOT go about doing/requesting such from my doctor - given I provided her with proper information, even.
Needless to say, I am scared shitless right now. I'm what you might call a cyberchondriac. I keep digging, digging, digging throughout the web about HIV symptoms, the physical attributes of those with HIV/AIDS.. And now I'm finding little things about myself which make me think "This, and that, and this - all of them could be signs!!!" I think I've actually brought myself to a point where I really DO believe I have it - even though there's that great significance I actually do not, considering my research.
My worries stem from, basically, having felt like crap for the past several months. Currently, or THIS month rather, my glands have been swollen (though no sore throat), my chest breaks out into a rash every-so-often/get itchy all over the place, and sometimes I feel slightly feverish - which to me, so I've read, could be HIV. Could also be my body fighting against some odd strain of virus, or allergies... Can you tell that I'm driving myself insane?
Last I had unprotected sex with the, ugh!, "junkie" in question was mid-late August. Understood there's a window period, but the "vast" majority will test positive within 25/28(?) days. So I'm wondering if it's safe to say I am, in fact, negative.
Another question: Because my PCP obviously does not care about her patients, and I had to BEG to get the blood work done in the first place, I ordered a home testing kit from Home Access online. If I use that, say, late this month, and it comes back negative, am I THEN, without a doubt, negative?
Again, thank you all so much!!!