vaginapagina | Implanon hatred

I had my Implanon inserted on April 6th and it has seriously fucked my hormones up as the nurse suggested it might for the first 3 months or so.

At first came unnatural aggression and wanting to argue and physically fight with people, then came crying outbursts at any given time.
But more recently I've felt a need to punish or physically hurt myself due to this erratic behaviour, physical change [namely weight gain] and the fact that I've lost all my libido and my boyfriend is complaining like a fucking insensitive idiot. By hurt I mean stuff like I'll have an urge to pour the boiling kettle over my arm when making tea or I dunno, even return to self-harming. Not just that but also the urge to hurt other people too, but moreso through nasty things that will verbally hurt them, than physically. It's like a new form of phased absolute hatred towards them.

It's making me feel like I'm going literally crazy and while Implanon is convenient, I am in no way going to sacrifice my mental health for it. So even though it's been less than a month I'm considering demanding that it be taken out asap. Has anyone else felt like this? If so did you ride the storm or did you get it out? I read in another comm that in its trials 50% of the women requested it be taken out, and I am seriously starting to see why. Please tell me I am not going mad, I'm just afraid of what I might do beyond my control :(