Implanon hatred

[seringue.livejournal.com]

I had my Implanon inserted on April 6th and it has seriously fucked my hormones up as the nurse suggested it might for the first 3 months or so.

At first came unnatural aggression and wanting to argue and physically fight with people, then came crying outbursts at any given time.
But more recently I've felt a need to punish or physically hurt myself due to this erratic behaviour, physical change [namely weight gain] and the fact that I've lost all my libido and my boyfriend is complaining like a fucking insensitive idiot. By hurt I mean stuff like I'll have an urge to pour the boiling kettle over my arm when making tea or I dunno, even return to self-harming. Not just that but also the urge to hurt other people too, but moreso through nasty things that will verbally hurt them, than physically. It's like a new form of phased absolute hatred towards them.

It's making me feel like I'm going literally crazy and while Implanon is convenient, I am in no way going to sacrifice my mental health for it. So even though it's been less than a month I'm considering demanding that it be taken out asap. Has anyone else felt like this?  If so did you ride the storm or did you get it out? I read in another comm that in its trials 50% of the women requested it be taken out, and I am seriously starting to see why. Please tell me I am not going mad, I'm just afraid of what I might do beyond my control :(

Comments

[elialshadowpine.livejournal.com]

This.

I never tried Implanon, but I did have these exact side effects with a version of the pill. I stayed on it for an entire month, and when it got to the point that I had to have somebody with me at all times because I knew too many ways to off myself (and it was weird, because I wasn't feeling depressed, I was just feeling like suicide was the Greatest Idea Ever... talk about a mindfuck o.O), I told the doc to put me on something else.

Talk to your doctor. Get that damned thing out immediately.

[ktnzgtklws.livejournal.com]

I've never had it, so feel free to ignore my $0.02. ;-)
That said, NOTHING is worth sacrificing your mental health. I would not be surprised if they give you the whole "wait 90 days, see if you even out" line. However, with symptoms as extreme as you're presenting here, I'd just stand firm and say "No. Get it out NOW."

[archangelbeth]

NOTHING is worth sacrificing your mental health. [...] with symptoms as extreme as you're presenting here, I'd just stand firm and say "No. Get it out NOW."

This, this, this!

[nakedfaery.livejournal.com]

I had my Implanon taken out after less than 2 months. I have bipolar II and borderline personality disorder and take Lamictal.

Implanon caused SERIOUS mood disturbances. I was suicidal to the point where I was nearly hospitalised. I didn't consider the convenience worth the symptoms I was experiencing nor did I want to wait to see if it got better.

I TOLD the nurse at the clinic (I'm in the U.K and get free contraception on the NHS) that I have these mental conditions and she told me there was a small chance that I'd have mood issues. SMALL. I told her that I take Lamictal, she said Lamictal wasn't on the list of medications that contraindicates Implanon insertion. She LIED. Implanon can severely inhibit the efficacy and absorption of Lamictal. Patients who take it generally need to have their dose upped considerably.

My psychiatrist went BANANAS when he heard they'd let me have it put in. He wrote a complaint letter and I received an apology.

I FUCKING hated Implanon and am so so glad I had a good supportive mental health team to make sure I didn't kill myself.

[llama4u448.livejournal.com]

You should have it taken out as soon as you can. I understand that hormones can make you moody, and by moody I mean easily angered,annoyed and,sad but wanting to hurt yourself is not something that would fall within those lines.

If I were you I would get it taken out and consider a non hormonal IUD. I'm getting one soon and the doctor tried to talk me into implanon but I refused. I told her that I want off the hormones because of weight gain and blood pressure issue and she told me it doesn't cause weight gain, so I told her well it might not cause it but it sure as hell makes it harder to lose.

[http://users.livejournal.com/__recidivist/]

I agree with everyone else: get it out. You might also want to join dont_cut for those times of sudden, panicky craving to injure (and do I know those). This definitely sounds like a medical issue, though, so you'll probably get best results treating it medically.

[frenchiemom.livejournal.com]

I second the IUD suggestion. It seems like a good alternative for you for long-term hassle-free (after an adjustment period, which can be a pain) birth control.

You could go for the Paragard if you want to avoid hormones all together or you could try the Mirena, which can have hormone-related side-effects, but because the dose is low and localized, they are usually less severe.

If you are interested, you should check out IUD Diva's:

http://community.livejournal.com/iud_divas

[seringue.livejournal.com]

thanks all x