Masturbation guilt

[rotf-lmao.livejournal.com]

Okay. You all are going to get sick of me, aren't you? XD

Well, this is something that has been ongoing with me for...well, for years, really. And I really wanted to know if I'm the only one, or what.



I've been masturbating for years. Honestly, I think I started when I was eight or so. Of course, back then I had no idea what it was called or anything. All I knew was that it felt very good.

It's probably pertinent to mention, at this point, that I was raised in a very Catholic family. Went to Catholic school all my life; all that good stuff. So of course, as I got older, I kept masturbating, but I also began learning about sex in school. I got the Catholic version of sex education -- including the fact that masturbation, while a normal form of exploration, was also "sinful" because it was a form of "self-abuse".

Now I'm 26. I've come a long way from that Catholic schoolgirl. I've worked as a phone sex operator, written erotica, and have a drawer full of sex toys. And I still masturbate on a (very) regular basis, and still love it.

But....I know it sounds dumb, but every now and again I find myself feeling slightly guilty about it. It never stops me for long, but that guilt does surface occasionally. I suppose all that Catholic education dies hard, you know?

I know one thing -- if I ever have kids, I'm going to make sure that they know that masturbation and sexual fantasy is perfectly normal and healthy. I mean, after all -- isn't masturbation the safest form of sex you can have? *lol*

I just wondered if anyone else ever experienced anything like this.

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[matchgirl42.livejournal.com]

I was raised Catholic and also Southern Baptist at the same time, and I got pretty much the same indoctrination. So I know the guilt of which you speak. I think my guilt has come more from not wanting my parents to know I was masturbating, rather than thinking it was an inherently bad/sinful thing to do. Because I knew they wouldn't approve, and might even kick me out of the house. That, of course, led to what a friend of mine recently called Ninja Orgasms - I'm really, really silent when I masturbate and when I cum, and it's become a habit to hold my breath as I cum. Even when I lived by myself. Wierd, I know.