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[ex-honorata758.livejournal.com]

i'm scared shitless...as i got from the shower i found out i have some strange stuff on the entrance to the vagina, just near the peryneum (?), the skin looks whitish and has some small whitish slightly protruding lesions. the closest i had like this was some lesions from a hardcore yeast infection i had a few years back...this time, no discharge or horrid burning...but i'm totally scared that it might be something else like HPV. the only time ever i had unprotected sex was 4 months ago but we both got tested for STD's before and both ov us were clean...tomorrow i'm marking an appointment at dr. terror, but i'm scared none the less...any clue to help me?

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[sunspoteyes.livejournal.com]

i don't know about whitish skin
but i have had
for as long as i can remember
small bumps on the inside
of my labia majora
and my perinium
so the the first time i went
to the gynolady
i asked about them
she said some women have them
and they are sort of like pimples:
small benign clogged pore type things

if they worry you
you should get them checked out

~ kig -><-

ps: ov is your friend

[ex-honorata758.livejournal.com]

well, not really a bump or various, but sort like a small line ov skin that's slightly protruding and whitish. a month ago or so i had a yeast infection that *might* have not gone away by now and i hope for the best it is some lesion from it...but this scares the shit out ov me none the less.

i guess i'll need a lot ov OV to calm me down...*ergh*

[the-designdiva.livejournal.com]

FYI, condoms do not completely protect you from HPV since it transferred skin to skin.

[perplexxi.livejournal.com]

along with what the_designdiva said, HPV can also take a few months to show up. not to mention, you cannot test for it unless there are visible warts are the time.

i wish you luck, and if it does turn out to be HPV, do not worry. almost everyone has it (with almost 100 strains out there, no real way to prevent it, and many sexually active people -- i tend to believe everyone has it).

relax, and do not be scared. you have a lot of people here who will keep you in their thoughts, and support you no matter what the bumps turn out to be.

[ex-honorata758.livejournal.com]

i am awfully scared because anything virus-related gives me the creeps...although i am inclined to believe it's the remnants ov something else, it breaks me apart because if i have it, it's another nail in the coffin...i'm a 3 yr rape survivor and the rape has almost destroyed my sex life...now that i am feeling sexually alive again, does something like this has to happen? it's not fair...i'm praying my ass off not to have bad news. ergh!!!

[rockstarbob.livejournal.com]

You're right, it isn't fair. I'm sorry you're going through this.

Just so you know, even if it *is* HPV, it's really not as bad as it sounds. A lot of us have it here in VP and there is another community that's just for those who have it: hpv.

So you know, hpv.org says that the majority of individuals who have ever been sexually active experience one or more genital HPV infection during their lifetime. It's pretty common and doesn't have to ruin your life at all. People are better educated about it now and are trying to get rid of the stigma attached to it. It's a lot easier to treat, too.

For future information, condoms do not protect against HPV infection (as it can be passed skin-to-skin or even through oral sex if the person has oral herpes at the time of contact) and HPV doesn't always show up in routine testing. It's important to REQUEST to be tested for it, so definitely bring this up to you doctor when you go.

And try to relax. I know it can be scary, but it's okay. You have support here and people who understand what you're going through. And hey, it might even be nothing at all!

[ex-honorata758.livejournal.com]

thank you so much...today as soon as i leave i'm marking an appointment with the doctor and getting an anonymous testing for STD. i want to get rid ov what there might lurk as soon as possible. thanks for your attention, it is truly appreciated...

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[rockstarbob.livejournal.com]

Any time. It's what we're here for.

Keep us updated!

[perplexxi.livejournal.com]

rockstarbob pretty much covered what i was going to say about IF it turns out to be HPV.

however, try to stay calm until you see the doctor. it could just be a few cysts. either way, you have a lot of women here who will support you no matter what. i am sorry to here of your situation, and would hate for you to feel sexually uncomfortable again. this does not have to ruin your life. you will be in my thoughts.
take care.

[ex-honorata758.livejournal.com]

(thank you :D)

[chirascuro1.livejournal.com]

I'm tending to think it's probably going to be irritated hair follicles, or a clogged pore...sometimes shaving will lead to an ingrown hair that becomes a huge irritated scary lump, but it's nothing. Good luck with it, and try to destress and not beat yourself up. Also, as an afterthought...did you switch soaps or soak in some bath stuff? Skin irritations can follow.

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[ex-honorata758.livejournal.com]

i have had some scary allergies in the past and i always knew how to deal with them...i am extremely reactive to almost every soap anyways. but at the place where it is (mucosa) i don't think that's a clogged pore. ergh.

[tigerfemme.livejournal.com]

Well, I've had cervical dysplasia in the past (thought to be a result of HPV infection). I was terrified at first, but quickly learned that HPV will *not* ruin your sex life (or life in general)!

I admire your resolve in getting back your sex life after a rape - that takes a lot of strength - and I want to assure you that HPV, *if* that is what it is (we don't know yet), will not take away your sex life again.

By the way, from what I understand, the external presentation of HPV can be treated.

But this is all speculation at this point - at least until we know whether it's indeed HPV! It very well could be something else...please don't keep yourself up at night. It's *not* worth that level of stress, please take it from someone who's dealt with it.

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[ex-honorata758.livejournal.com]

by this time, since the tratment the doctor prescribe is making effect very quickly, and from the opinions that two different doctors gave by mere observation ("tyhat is not viral" and "that doesn't look like anything serious") i'd be inclined to say it is not - i will only know in october though. i was exposed and i have considered that possibility since i am a sucker and always think about the worst...oh well.

[tigerfemme.livejournal.com]

I understand imagining the worst...I do it *all* the time. The HPV experience was a good learning experience in that way, though.

I know it doesn't help to hear it now, but I'll say it anyway - you'll be ok "vagina-wise," no matter what it is. Just keep an eye on it and also keep up on your Pap smears.

Please don't put yourself down (re being a sucker for worrying); we all worry about something scary to us. As well, almost every one of us has been exposed to HPV. For you, whether it's HPV or not...and it' s likely not...whatever has happened is *not* your fault. You may not be thinking that way, but I wanted to say that just in case.

*sends hugs if you want them*