Natural way to fight bio-clock?

[seberia.livejournal.com]

This is weird, but I figure if anyone can help me you all can.

I have a big time desire to have babies. I want to be pregnant, I want to have my babies, I want to take care of them and teach them and change their diapers and get no sleep and let them learn and let them fail and be there to help them figure it all out. But, I am 22. Freshly 22. I don't have a whole lot by way of savings and I know that I will not be having any babies any time soon. Too smart and too much desire to make my babies lives good lives and well taken care of lives. I want to have their path set up for them.

So here is my question, is there some way to make my biological clock stop going off every day? It's literally every day. Like an alarm is set so that at night, when I start to feel a tiredness gnawing at my mind, I instantly go "imagine being tired all the time! It'll be wonderful" or whatever my brain thinks that instantly makes some primal part of my brain ask "Why am I not pregnant NOW?"

Duh, brain, because you are not ready. Because you don't have money. Because you want to make sure shit will work out. But that isn't good enough for my brain and my clock and my heart. It's painful to see babies in strollers or commercials for baby food. Though honestly I think I am going through some form of hormonal shift. My pee smells more musky, my hips widened more, I gained a little weight (woot over 100lbs) and I have that weird little bump thing women get over their wombs. My boobs are bigger too. Not pregnant, and this has been going on for a few months now. But how do I fight against all this? I am sick of being butthurt because I am trying to be mature and responsible. I want to be happy that one day I WILL have children. For some reason, it isn't doing anything for me.

Is there anything at all I can do? Drink tea? Eat steak? Goats milk? Mint leaves over my eyes? I will take anything cause this weird depression feeling has got to go away. Please help.

itchy bumps on outer labia

[glitterdemon.livejournal.com]

I am on the verge of crying yet again because this thing is not going away and I have been really uncomfortable for maybe 4-5 days?

basically I have bumps on one side of my outer labia, in the hair. they are both painful and itchy. unfortunately I'm a big girl so it's hard for me to get a good look at what's going on down there. my husband has looked and says they look like pimples to him, but from what I've been able to glimpse with a hand-held mirror and a camera they almost seem more like hives (the skin looks raised but unbroken). they're very red.

two days ago now I realised I'd been using a scented clothing detergent when I usually buy detergent free of scents or dyes. I was so sure I was having an allergic reaction, so I bought some of the soap I usually use and washed all the clothes that would have contact w/ that part of my body. however, the bumps have not gone away and in fact seem to be spreading slightly -- they've moved down past the hairline, toward the inner labia; farther back toward my bottom, etc. still confined to only one side though. they've also itched more, for the past 48 hours or so (in the beginning they barely itched at all and were more painful, like zits under the skin). they're still painful to touch.

I've tried aloe (directly from the plant), Aveeno lotion, ointment, and a couple Aveeno colloidal oatmeal baths, but none of that has helped beyond providing temporary relief.

I am sexually active, but neither my husband or myself had partners before we were married, so it can't be something sexually transmitted.

I would just go right to a doctor at this point, but I have no health insurance and no employment, so if this is something that I can take care of without a visit to the doctor that would be ideal. please help. :(

Excessive bleeding between periods on the pill?

[pixiebelle.livejournal.com]

A wee or so ago, I mentioned in here about bleeding while on the pill. Nothing excessive, like a regular period.

It's continued well past a week, but it's happened to me before when I skipped periods like I have been.

This gets rather gross, I apologize.

But today, I noticed something strange on my chair at work. A wet spot. I went to the bathroom and even with a tampon in for just a few hours, my panties were soaked totally through. Not just a little blood, but soaked. As is my pants and apparently my chair. My tampon was covered. It wasn't in that long. There are thicker bits of blood too.

So umm is this as bad as it looks? I don't gave insurance until next week since starting a new job. I can't afford a doctor and Planned Parenthood has a two to three waitlist for an appointment.

So has this happened to anyone else? What could be happening?

epilators

[strawberrys.livejournal.com]

I recently purchased an epilator. And I really love the idea of it, but I can't use it where I'd like to because of the pain (I can barley stand to use it on my legs). But I know some people use it on their bikini areas/arm pits instead of waxing or shaving. My question is, what have you found to numb the area effectively?