vaginapagina | Painful icky girly stuff.

Tomorrow is the five week mark for my IUD. Has it already been that long?

Tomorrow is the five and a half week of me bleeding. Fucking hell.

Three times now, the flow has stopped. Clean undies, no discharge. I'm feeling good, then ::whammy!:: it comes back.

Luckily it's not so much that I can't sleep nude, I just need to wear some protection during the day. And I've tried my Mooncup a couple of times. Sometimes it feels awesome, and sometimes- like last week-I was having some major cramping from it all day. I wore it for a full day at work (about 6:30 am to 4:30 pm) and all day I was having painful vaginal cramps, lower back pain/cramps, and uterine cramps. It bloody well hurt.

And, for the last few days, I've have been having that hot sickly feeling at the front of my stomach, by my pelvic bone (where I usually get the hot sickly feeling of period-ness) but this is bladderness. Every fucking half hour. And I feel like I'm going to pee myself. I get in there, sit down, and it's a few drops, maybe a stream for a few seconds. It's not anything near what it feels like, at any rate. It's not an infection. There's no pain, no burning, no "wrong" discharge. I just gotta pee lots.

But my main concern, at the moment, is the constant cramping. It's probably the IUD, but all these cramps started before I got the IUD inserted. And they were verging on painful. I never ever ever got period pains before I started birth control about 3 years ago. Never ever in my life. (And I've been menstruating since I was eight bloody years old!) I got vaginal cramps (painful, debilitating, but thankfully they never lasted more than a couple of minutes, and were weeks/months between) and I got severe, fetal-position-causing lower back pain, which now I think could have been related.

Now, I am getting the vaginal cramping more often. Much more often. Maybe a couple times a week now, when before it would be a couple months apart. And the lower back pain, almost constant. Not crippling like it sometimes was, but still really annoying. The uterine cramping isn't so bad. I feel twinges from time to time, but it's not nearly as bad as the vaginal and back pain.

It's not an infection. I've only been with my husband, and I was tested for infections early this year so the NHS could put it on their records. It can't be a yeast infection or a UTI because it doesn't match their M.O.'s.

I think my body is whaling on me for abusing it with hormones and now an IUD. But it would be so much worse to get pregnant. Gods, I could use being sterilized right now.

I should be going to get my IUD check-up next week. I'll ask the doctor then what it could be. Vaganismus might be the problem, but why would I get painful vaginal cramps when I'm not having sex? (And I got them long before I ever started having sex, before I ever even started masturbating). Same with the lower back pain. Endo? I don't know enough about it, nor do I want to start myself panic attacking over something I may not have.

Le sigh. My body hates me.