Sex and self-consciousness

[attheocean.livejournal.com]

I don't know if this is a silly question, but it's worth a try. I am a 21 year-old female. I am underweight. However, my weight has fluctuated greatly over the course of my life. Because of this, my breasts aren't very perky and sag a little. I am extremely self-conscious about them and sometimes resorted to wearing my shirt during sex with my ex-boyfriend. (Thankfully, though, he was very accommodating. He understood I was self-conscious and reassured me tremendously throughout the course of our relationship. I'm just scared he was a rarity.) My problem now lies in future relationships. As crazy as it sounds, I'm scared I won't be able to find someone else because of my chest (or, at least, someone who will stay). I know guys who are worthwhile probably won't leave a girl because of something she can't control, but there's always this nagging voice in my mind that says that I can't possibly be attractive to a guy if he finds out my breasts aren't as cute and perky as they appear to be. In the future, I'd like plastic surgery, but that's just not a conceivable option right now.

In short, I suppose I'm looking for reassurance. I would like to hope most guys wouldn't leave a girl because of an imperfect chest, but I can't help but doubt myself and future relationships/sexual situations.

Comments

[kah-tea-uh.livejournal.com]

I agree with the above comments. My boobs are 46DD and I've got scars from self-inflicted injuries, and for the first month my boyfriend and I were together I never took off my bra around him, but when I did I realized he really doesn't care about the "imperfections" that I see in my breasts (it really is like a cat with a laser pointer, guys never get tired of playing with boobies). He occasionally reminds me: "Your breasts are beautiful," and that along with the other comments here makes me pretty confident that most guys really love boobs, no matter what.