(( VaginaPagina ))

I went through the same kind of abuse all through my childhood until I was 15. ,so I definatly know how hard it is to trust someone. Because of all the stress from the abuse, I started dropping weight like crazy. So much that teachers would harass me and ask me if I was anorexic. This made me really self concious and hateful of how I looked. So you're definatly not alone on issues with body image, either. In fact, even the most attractive and secure women are often self concious of how they look, too.
My advice to you is don't rush into anything. Don't try to have sex with anyone until you feel totally comfortable about the whole thing. It also helps to talk. Before I slept with the person I'm currently with, I told him everything about the abuse that I went through as a kid. And he was completely understanding and I didn't feel uncomfortable at all the first time we had sex.