I first got my period at about 14ish...like 8th grade or so. I do not remember really for nobody said anything to me I did not even tell my mother. We are kinda a closed family for some reason. Anyway, it was normal for awhile, every month like clockwork exactly for a week with only mild pain and bloating etc.
Then in 10th grade so 15ish my period came...and never went away. That ... was...annoying to say the least. Like the pain went away but I did not stop bleeding for 4 months. I finally told my mom and she tool me to see someone at around the start of 11th grade. Well they did not know why that was happening so they put me on Yasmin to see if that would stop the bleeding. Well it did...only too much. I was not sexually active or anything but my period did not come for like almost 6 months so they switched me to double yasmin or... I do not even remember at this point. Long story short they finally got my body into a system with the Yasmin that worked and I had it once a month only...with tons of pain. Every since that I have hated my period. Before I thought nothing really of it. I would wear either pads or tampons. I would go about my day just with dome advil. As soon as they made me "normal" nothing but badness.
So I continued until last March like that until my body rejected the Yasmin and basically said "look...I do not care what you want...but I want to bleed like a slaightered cow for awhile...do deal with it" . Nomrally I would not care but I had pain all the time and everything. I was put on the Nuvaring, which I do love. But now there is another problem. I have endrometriosis. I have had it they say for probably like 3 years but nobody seemed to think to check for that. I swear I have the worst doctors. That is why now even when I am not mentrating I am in endless pain. To get through when I have my period I have to be on Motrin, Vicodin, and sometimes midol all at the same time. Otherwise I curl into a ball and cry simply because I feel as though I am being ripped open. I am having surgery this summer so maybe all of this will not be as bad. Because of my later experiences I hate having that time of the month. I used to be kinda happy about it. Hey look at me. I could have babies...if I did not think them annoying! Now I almost feel ashamed. It makes me feel as though something is just wrong with me and has basically ruiened my life at the moment. I am having issues with school, friends (because I am always so bitchy) etc and even my parents.
My father: Can't she just ignore it. I mean...who cares? How bad can it be? Not like her leg is broken.
Me: Gee thanks. So anyway. I decided to tell you that because maybe it can help in terms of how experiences can change your whole view on the subject to make you be proud to shameful...esp since even without the endometriosis issue I have had to go through endless pain and crap as they switch my meds and what not to make me be "normal". In our society your just a freak if you are not regular or something. I dunno...I also wanted to vent all of this sinced it has been getting to me and nobody in my family really cares.
Oh and it does not help that if your not old and have endometriosis or morbidly obese you're just a loser and should be killed apparently. *sigh* This whole period thing makes me seriously wish I was born a boy.
wow I feel better now. sorry if that does not help and u still had to read it all.
You can use my name and whatever...not like anyone is going to say it right anyway ;P
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Date: 2006-04-20 09:37 pm (UTC)I first got my period at about 14ish...like 8th grade or so. I do not remember really for nobody said anything to me I did not even tell my mother. We are kinda a closed family for some reason. Anyway, it was normal for awhile, every month like clockwork exactly for a week with only mild pain and bloating etc.
Then in 10th grade so 15ish my period came...and never went away. That ... was...annoying to say the least. Like the pain went away but I did not stop bleeding for 4 months. I finally told my mom and she tool me to see someone at around the start of 11th grade. Well they did not know why that was happening so they put me on Yasmin to see if that would stop the bleeding. Well it did...only too much. I was not sexually active or anything but my period did not come for like almost 6 months so they switched me to double yasmin or... I do not even remember at this point. Long story short they finally got my body into a system with the Yasmin that worked and I had it once a month only...with tons of pain. Every since that I have hated my period. Before I thought nothing really of it. I would wear either pads or tampons. I would go about my day just with dome advil. As soon as they made me "normal" nothing but badness.
So I continued until last March like that until my body rejected the Yasmin and basically said "look...I do not care what you want...but I want to bleed like a slaightered cow for awhile...do deal with it" . Nomrally I would not care but I had pain all the time and everything. I was put on the Nuvaring, which I do love. But now there is another problem. I have endrometriosis. I have had it they say for probably like 3 years but nobody seemed to think to check for that. I swear I have the worst doctors. That is why now even when I am not mentrating I am in endless pain. To get through when I have my period I have to be on Motrin, Vicodin, and sometimes midol all at the same time. Otherwise I curl into a ball and cry simply because I feel as though I am being ripped open. I am having surgery this summer so maybe all of this will not be as bad. Because of my later experiences I hate having that time of the month. I used to be kinda happy about it. Hey look at me. I could have babies...if I did not think them annoying! Now I almost feel ashamed. It makes me feel as though something is just wrong with me and has basically ruiened my life at the moment. I am having issues with school, friends (because I am always so bitchy) etc and even my parents.
My father: Can't she just ignore it. I mean...who cares? How bad can it be? Not like her leg is broken.
Me: Gee thanks. So anyway. I decided to tell you that because maybe it can help in terms of how experiences can change your whole view on the subject to make you be proud to shameful...esp since even without the endometriosis issue I have had to go through endless pain and crap as they switch my meds and what not to make me be "normal". In our society your just a freak if you are not regular or something. I dunno...I also wanted to vent all of this sinced it has been getting to me and nobody in my family really cares.
Oh and it does not help that if your not old and have endometriosis or morbidly obese you're just a loser and should be killed apparently. *sigh* This whole period thing makes me seriously wish I was born a boy.
wow I feel better now.
sorry if that does not help and u still had to read it all.
You can use my name and whatever...not like anyone is going to say it right anyway ;P