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I have a question about miscarriage..

Okay, up till this morning, I was pretty sure I was pregnant. I've recently been having sex with a new boyfriend without using anything [yes, yes, I'm an idiot] as I was previously on the pill.. but sortof stopped taking it a while ago when I wasn't getting any and kept forgetting anyway. And since the new BF, I've meant to start taking it again but.. well, it's a procrastinatory thing. But anyway.

So yeah.. I was meant to come on, on the 8th. But.. I didn't. And I still haven't. So I assumed.. that I was pregnant, and was going to get a test today, actually, to confirm it.

But then this morning I went to the toilet when I got up, as usual, and well.. when I wiped.. it was like the usual whitish fluid-y discharge/cum sortof thing I often get on an everyday basis [know what i mean?] only.. it was tinged pink, and there were flecks of actual blood in it.. like proper blood-red blood. This happened twice in about five minutes.. I'm not sure if it's just my period coming on, but it doesn't usually look like this.

I read up quickly a second ago [I have to catch the bus at 9!] and am thinking this could have been a chemical pregnancy or miscarriage? This is all considering in mind that if I am/was pregnant, it's only 4-5 weeks gone. So it wouldn't be like.. a heavy miscarriage or anything. But the bleeding described in the description of a chemical miscarriage sounded heavier and bloodier than what I'm experiencing.. Of course I have only been up about 45 minutes so I'll see what happens over the day, but I just wanted to get a heads-up from you guys.. I did drink obscene amounts of alcohol in the week of the 6th-11th; I was on holiday and then had a party on the saturday, but I'm pretty sure that if that was the cause of a miscarriage it would have happened a lot sooner..

Now I'm starting to ramble, and I really do need to go catch my bus..
I'm probably panicking over nothing, but I just wanted to get the heads-up from you guys, if any of you have experienced anything similar before or could tell me what this might be?

Thanks!
Ps- I'm not sure if this is considered an out-of-context post along with the pregnancy type ones.. so let me know if so and I'll delete. x-posted to am_i_pregnant anyways.