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[dystatic.livejournal.com]

ok, im feeling a bit desperate right now.. so bear with the rambling.

an hour or so ago i went and got together my pictures from the weekend to show my brother, i handed them to him and hes all 'i dont want to look at these'
normally id just be, fine then dont. but instead i gathered up my stuff came upstairs and cried.
and this isnt really typical for me. i have chronic depression, but im not a cryer, im a yeller. i also have someteimes sucidally severe pms. and pms is the ONLY time i get weepy like this. ive been weepy lately.
the thing is, my period ended last weekend. so it CANT be pms, because im not at the right point in my cycle.
and i really dont know whats going on.
i dont think its depression related, but maybe it is?
it cant be pms, but it definately feels hormonal.
ive also been having discomfort/pain in my lower abdomen/pelvic region. esspeically lower right which i thought was related to a urinary tract infection. but urine tests came back clean.
i tend to have chronic lower right pain, which has been checked out gynocologically and everything was fine, and i assume is related to my bowels.
i have had a cyst (or a reoccuring cyst?) in my right ovary in the past, but if thats back can that be messing my hormones out so bad?
ive also been noticing LOTS of discharge. thick gelatinous type discharge, which i normally get, but lately its more, and also sometimes its a bit yellowish, but NO odour.

i dont know. i cant call my shrink (who i usually talk to cause hes the only doc i feel comfortable with) cause hes on holiday starting yesterday. i am going to a GP on monday in regards to the pee related problems.
i talked to my mom earlier and she brought up the cyst theory. and it makes a bit of sense, that if it was a big sucker it could be causing pain and pressing on my bladder, etc... but this hormonal wackyness is just fucking me up. i mean i cant go through every day crying at the slightest thing, my eyes burn. this isnt normal. (not even for me)

i just need some sort of clue as to whats going on. perhaps one of your is more knowledgable than me. i will talk to the doc on monday. but what the hell is going on?

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[winterknight.livejournal.com]

first, you could be ovulating. i don't have premenstrual syndrome, i have post-ovulation syndrome. i'm a bitch and i cry and i'm miserable.

yes, it could be a cyst. it could be irritable bowel syndrome. if it gets bad, it could be your appendix, esp if you run a fever. here's what i would do if it were me :

drink 2 glasses of water and 1 every hour until the pain eased
take 1000mg of vitamin C 3x day
take vitamin B stress complex 2x day
stop eating for 12 hours except for water, herbal tea, juice
do some yoga stretches, gently

only you know your body, though. if you get to have too much pain, see a dr asap.

[dystatic.livejournal.com]

but i shouldnt be ovulating untill mid next week.
and definately not feeling the ovulation thing.
the pain is minimal. well noticable, but not really any different than usual. i do have some lower/side back discomfort (why i was thinking urinary tract, kidneys and all)
its not ibs. my bowels are horrid and for the past week theyve been EXTREAMLY good. youd almost think i was regular.
i definately should take some vit.supliments, good idea.
not eating for 12 hours is fairly normal for me. but i dontreally feel like fasting would be a good idea for the moment.
definately should drink more, i think ive been mildly dehydrated since last week.
been eating these popsicle type things nonstop for the past few days though.
the hormonal thing is just whats really bugging me though.
id just blame it all on moody mental illness, but like you said, im the only one who knows my body, and i know my mind and this does not seem to be depression.
but yeah! ill try to drink more and get some vitamins in me this weekend.

[ninaf.livejournal.com]

ovulation can occur at anytime in your cycle. Unless you temp everyday and have been for the last few months then you really don't know when you ovulate. 12-14 days is just when the "average" women ovulates... who is average anymore?

[dystatic.livejournal.com]

i can generally tell when im ovulating
either by 'feeling' it, or certain pains/etc.

it COULD be ovulation, but ive never had this effect during ovulation before.
and i tend to be fairly regular, so it would be odd for ovulation to be bumped up a week.
odd but not impossible!

[brindle.livejournal.com]

Get checked for STDs if you are sexually active. That sounds like key symptoms. Also could be a PID - Pelvic Inflammatory Disease. Neither would be too serious - some antibiotics & week later you would be fine. Just get to the doc & tell them your symptoms. PIDs or STDs (or whatever it is) left untreated are dangerous & not to mention, make you feel like shit.

[dystatic.livejournal.com]

no std's cause im not sexually active.
pid - who knows.
but yeah, hopefully the doc actually listens to me this time.
this is the doc who id go to see about pain/etc. (before i had my gallbladder removed) and he would say 'so are you still seeing that psychiatrist'
so now its ibs/stress blanket excuse for everything. but hopefully its not a complete waste of time.

[brindle.livejournal.com]

If you feel that you aren't getting adequate & respectful treatment from your doctor, find someone who handles your needs & lives up to your expectations. Life is too short to pay for doctors to be shitty & disrespectful to you. Good luck.

[dystatic.livejournal.com]

yeah i know
i usually dont go to him.. i just hate doctors
i ended up going to the medicenter, which is a walkin place, so no appointments and you see a different doc each time usually
most doctors in the city arent accepting new patients, or theyre super far away and i HATE going to the doc, im NOT going to ride a bus for 2 hours to see one.
generally my shrink sends me for tests or whatever if i need them and i go to the medicenter for things like.. bronchitus or whatnot which i get occasionally.
after my surgery he started treating me better, but im still.. im bitter. so, its kidna lose lose situation.
id rather not go to ANY doctors. blah.

[misserzulie.livejournal.com]

I had the very same thing going on at the beginning of last year. I was even put on Prozac for my "mood swings" and they would be all sudden like I'd wake up in a good mood, then all of a sudden at any given point in the day, I would turn into a bitch, or see a commercial and cry hysterically. When I went for my annual gyno visit, they asked about meds that i was taking and I told them Prozac and told them why I was taking it, and they checked me out and BAM! big ol' cyst. I actually had my whole ovary removed for other reasons, but it took me forever to get back in balance with my hormones. After the cyst was removed, I was slowly weaned off Prozac, and now I'm fine. I don't know if this helps, but it sounds kinda the same thing.

[dystatic.livejournal.com]

it does!
i honestly dont remember any of the mood changes with my cyst before?
last time it was checked was well over a year ago, probably 2
and then i had a diagnostic laproscopy last april and things were 'nromal'
but doctors keep telling me that cysts can come and go with each cycle.
and i mean im not mentally healthy as can be, im on disability for psychological reasons, but ive been dealing/fighting with that long enough to know what it is and how i feel when im depressed, and this is DEFINATELY hormonal.
and it just sucks. im moody at the best of times but this is just rediculous.
hopefully the doc will order an ultrasound, ill ask him. maybe something (besides ovary removal, cause well, i dont want to have surgery again anytime soon) can be done.
i hate this crying though, its like i even think of something thats kinda sweet or somehow even the least bit emotional and i tear up. i feel pathetic.

[magickalmoon.livejournal.com]

Don't quote me on this, but I'm sure your ovaries control your hormones (or something along those lines). I know my mother went off the rails when she had a total hysterectomy (the lot) and had to go on hormone tabs. Get it checked, just to be double sure..

If you get half answers from your doc and he/she tells you it's all in your head, tell the doc to P off and get a new one, and keep searching until you find one who will listen to what you have to say. I know it sucks to have to go but it's your health on the line. You can't afford to have someone telling you the opposite of what you already know. This is what's wrong with the "supermarket checkout" style of medical center. It's like a production line and they don't give a stuff about the patient. Try a Woman doctor for a start, they always listen because they know what it's like. (if only docs were the same in real life as they were on TV)

Sorry I couldn't give you any magic answers..

[dystatic.livejournal.com]

yeah, i know i need to find a good doctor. but most of the time id rather ignore the problem instead of going through that. not the healthiest thing, but blah.
and yep, your ovaries produce estrogen and progesterone
depending on where you are in your cycle.
i think its estrogen at the begining and progesterone after ovulation, but im not positive.
hormones suck.

[magickalmoon.livejournal.com]

Just another thought...

Sometimes it's ok to have a bit of a meltdown. I know I do every once in a while. Everything upsets me, I cry at just about everything and then it goes away as quickly as it came. Could it just be that you are having a shitty week? That might explain the moods.. Not sure about the discharge though, I would get that checked out..

[dystatic.livejournal.com]

i dont think its a breakdown.
im ok with breakdowns, but this is more ..
no release. just like crying for no reason, and not out of sadness or anything. just sitting there and tears falling from my eyes.
thats what it feels like.
and emotionally ive been to detached lately for a meltdown (even a good one) to not feel like anything.
because ive been dealing with (no, fighting, figuring, working at) mental illness so long, my emotions are mapped out pretty good. im a logical person so ive been disecting it from the start.
my outbursts here are definately hormonal feeling.

[huncamunca.livejournal.com]

i think that everything i was going to say has been said here already.
pain relating to your bowels is usually on the left hand side where the descending colon is.
it really does sound like ovulation which may just be a little earlier than usual.

[dystatic.livejournal.com]

bowel pain can be anywhere in your lower abdomen (or upper if its duodenal) i only get left sided pain with severe constipation.
the pain isnt really the question though, cause ive had periodic lower right pain for years.
its non cyclic though. and ive had it when there is no cyst.
thats why i had a laproscopy. that turned out normal though.
its the hormonal mood swings and the urinary changes that are abnormal and bugging me
and its quite possibly ovulation, i honestly havent a clue.
hopefully the doc can do something?