nicolesvoice.livejournal.comHi Ladies,
I am beginning to feel crazy, I was diagnosed with a functional corpus luteum cyst via sonogram on May 12, after dealing with the symptoms for a month and a half. I went for a follow up on June 2 and the cyst had shrunk slightly, but I was still having loads of symptoms. I have found lots of information out there about functional cysts and how "normal" and "common" and "no big deal" they are, and honestly, I feel nuts because my symptoms have me going insane!
A brief history:
Back in March I took the morning after pill, Plan B. I had a withdrawal bleed a few days later. After a couple weeks I started to feel bloated and heavy in the abdomen, I thought it could be PMS, but took a pregnancy test just to be sure and it was negative. My PMS like symptoms continued and a month later I still had no period, just the ever worsening bloating, irritability and fatigue. I had been assuming the symptoms were just my body re-balancing after the high dose of hormones in the Plan B. Finally I went to the emergency room once it became unbearable - I thought my abdomen was going to bust - and they found the cyst, it was only an inch in diameter, which isn't large compared to what I have read. It got to the point where I couldn't work, because I couldn't sit or stand for long. The only relief was in laying flat in bed. Over the course of these three months I went from a size 4 to a size 10, but the only real weigh gain was my stomach, butt and thighs.
So here I sit, three months after the onset of these symptoms. Still miserable. I feel crazy when I read that cysts aren't a big deal. Most days, I can't walk from my car to my house door without being exhausted. I can't work full days at work, I am self-employed with my own retail shop, so I can sit most of the day, but even that kills me. I cannot exercise as jogging and even walking cause my stomach to bloat more. I feel clumsy, as though my motor skills are affected. I am a ballet dancer, which is currently out of the question, but I am used to being graceful and together - now trying to carry my purse and a water bottle seems to throw me off balance. The pressure affects my bladder and bowels, such intense pressure I feel like I have to go to the bathroom constantly. In addition, I am super irritable and I feel like I am losing my mind. I have always had a razor sharp memory and I have begun forgetting things I have known my whole life, like the date of my father's birthday! I cry at the drop of a hat (in fact I am crying as I write this!). My daily life has been so severely affected by these symptoms that I feel like I will never be normal again. I can't do my job, I can't do my workouts or dance, I don't want to be around people. I am sure I sound whiny, but the cyst and its symptoms have taken my life away. Has anyone experienced such severe and intense symptoms? I certainly don't consider myself a wimp and all my friends would vouch for that. Pain I can take, this I cannot. I feel alien in my own body.
The various doctors I have seen pretty much tell me that I have to wait. One doctor has given me a prescription for Provera, which I will start next week if I still have no period. Has anyone else used Provera for cysts? Or for anything else? I am hoping that I ovulated last week, but everything is still so screwed up I can't be sure. I would love to hear other's experiences. I really feel like I am losing it.
Thanks for reading, this ended up longer than expected.