smallcrime.livejournal.comhello everyone!
i'm dannielle.
okay, so i've read through this community once before & this was a few years ago. just the other day it popped back into my head after i'd been experiencing some difficulties with sex & had no one to talk to about it (thanks mom for trying). i've thought about going to the doctor, only i've been there about four times this month for various sexually related questions.
anyhow, i'm fairly inexperienced in the sexual department seeing as i lost my virginity at age eighteen. i'm nineteen now & i'm currently dating my boyfriend bryan. we've recently started having sex (after about 5 or 6 months of not having sex & it was only once before bryan) & i'm not sure if it's supposed to hurt as much as it does. i know that if you're still fairly new to sex it's supposed to be uncomfortable & a little painful due to not being stretched out or used to being penetrated.
the other night he tried going slower for me (& i'm talking super super slow) & it still hurt. everytime it feels like he's going too deep & i can feel it in my bellybutton. is he hitting my cervix? so we stop & the mood is set off. also, if we're going at a steady pace, the opening of my vagina feels like it's burning or stinging, like too much friction. could it be the type of condom? not enough lube?
i've read other stories about vaginal dryness, YI's ect, but i'm not sure what it could be. all in all he could just be too big for me (about 7.5 inches erect) or i'm just not used to it. i've never orgasmed, or felt any sort of pleasure. i might not be relaxed or i might feel pressured to make noise & act like i'm enjoying it. this very well could be an emotional thing, however i can't even insert my fingers up there without it hurting. i've also been with female lovers who were unable to get me off. i can get myself off, but only by stimulating the clitoris. i've never tried toys, the only other idea i had was the shower head (which always works instantly). i almost feel like it's impossible for me to let someone else pleasure me if i'm not doing it myself. maybe i'm so used to myself, no one else can do it? i've tried telling him tips or tricks, but nothing. he has managed to get me excited during oral though, which is the only time i orgasm with any lovers.
*sigh* sometimes it feels like i'm broken. any suggestions or ideas?
edit: thank you guys so much!! i'm glad i'm not alone. :)