demonsynn.livejournal.comOk....Here's my problem. My boyfriend and I have been together for 2 years and we have had a very rocky realtionship. It took me a long time to be able to make love to him and want it 100% percent. I began to not ever get turned on...And I let that take over my mind....It was like I kept thinking about how "This isn't turning me on one bit" So of corse it wouldn't. Our sex life has been even rockier than our relationship. We went from 2 times a day....to 3 times a week....than we didn't have sex for at least 3 months and now it's about once or twice every two weeks. The last time we TRIED to have sex. I stopped him midway because it seems like he was just laying there...lethargic like. Now I know what some are thinking...He may not be intrested in me anymore but, it's not that. I will admit now to have cheated on him in the past & it's something I havn't really admited to anyone but him and close friends. It's not something I'm proud of and I have been through a lot because of it...So I ask, please don't judge me for that reason....It was just a quick background reference.
Our relationship since I admitted to everything has slowly gotten better with time and him being so loving and caring. He tells me I'm sexy as I do the same for him.....Ahh....I keep rambling and losing train of thought. Point is, through all of our problems and rockiness we succeded and now have a pretty good relationship (ie; loving, flirty, caring, we tell eachother we are best friends)....But, sex life? NADA.
As I was saying earlier...I stopped him midway because it seemed like I was doing everything. It just hit me like a ton of bricks. How can I get him to get in touch with his feminine/romantic side when it comes to our sex life. I've tried telling him certain things that I like and asking what he likes but he is the type of person to take that as crisitism and he gets depressed half way through sex. It's no good. I love him to death and I want to have a good sex life but it just ISN'T working. :(