See the thing with me is that I never had casual sex, I only had sex with people I was in a relationship with and the last one was a LT relationship that ended very bad. It hurt me for 2 or 3 years where even masturbating was stressful because it reminded me of my relationship. I did have a strong sex drive and a male atitude but I needed that emotional connection (relationship) to be sexual, though cuddling and stuff was not for me.
As I stated in an answer above I haven't been with anyone since my relationship broke up and although I am no longer in love with said person, though I feel something inside me changed. Now as I age, I'm finding my body is also changing and it frightens me - plus now I have to finally after 5+ years go back into the dating scene and that doesn't make me feel much better, especially since I am a gay woman and the lesbian/gay community is full of 20-something models.
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Date: 2011-12-05 02:30 am (UTC)As I stated in an answer above I haven't been with anyone since my relationship broke up and although I am no longer in love with said person, though I feel something inside me changed. Now as I age, I'm finding my body is also changing and it frightens me - plus now I have to finally after 5+ years go back into the dating scene and that doesn't make me feel much better, especially since I am a gay woman and the lesbian/gay community is full of 20-something models.