chances of pregnancy after birth control?

[midnightsphinx.livejournal.com]

So I was on yasmin for two months. A little over a week ago I stopped taking it altogether. I had a period that lasted around 5 days and last night I had unprotected sex. Is it at all possible I could be ovulating and have the chance of getting pregnant? Or does it take a few months to start ovulating again after being on the pill?

*I would also like to add that I have been taking the anti biotic Doxycycline for the past 3 weeks. I don't know how much this effects the birth control... 

Tender breasts and insomnia/fatiuge

[kymmeebear.livejournal.com]

For the past 3 days almost my breasts have been kind of sore and stiff feeling.  If anything presses up against them (even my arm when I am typing) It hurts like hell.  I'm not sure if its my bra or, according to a period tracker I am ovulating, but I am staring to worry.  I have also been having a problem with insomnia, I stay up till all hours of the night sometimes but then when I get to sleep finaly I never want to wake up, I am always tired until it's time for me to go to bed.  I have tried laying in darkness, reading a book, watching tv, drinking (some suggest eating) and not eating.  Nothing helps, I just feel draggy all the time for the past week. 

Pretty please help me figure out whats going on?

PCOS cysts "bursting": fact of fiction?

[io2012.livejournal.com]

So I now have a tentative diagnosis of PCOS. Long story short, I am HWP, but have never had regular menses. Since going off HBC, I had an increase in acne and body hair, a big increase in sex drive (huzzah for that at least) and have been bleeding almost continuously. When they took a transvaginal ultrasound, they found multiple small cysts on both of my ovaries, but my left ovary is far worse - it is basically enlarged (as deep as it is long) and filled with PCOS cysts. They also checked the position of my Paragard IUD, which is fine, and found that my endometrium looked happy as a clam. (it should be, with all the shedding its been doing!) 

Now it is my understanding that PCOS "cysts" are basically small, immature ovarian follicles. That being said, can they actually "burst"? If so, what does that mean? I'm asking because I've had very few cramps with my continous bleeding, but the ones I have had are INTENSE (7/10 pain), sharp/stabbing, and very localized over my left ovary. Sometimes the pain seems to go directly through my abdomen from front to back (ie: I have pinpoint pain on a line that starts 6" diagonally down from my belly button and ends at a spot on my low back). These episodes start without warning (no normal "aches and pains" from my uterus) and last anywhere from 1 - 4hrs. Ibuprofen doesn't have much effect, heat and lying still seem to help more than anything. 

I'm just curious because my previous experiences with menstrual cramps were that they took a day or two to "warm up" before my period would start (when I would get it) and that they were more diffuse/spread out. They also responded well to ibuprofen and some light exercise/sex. When I get these cramps now sex and exercise are the last things I think of.

Any thoughts? 

grief after abortion

[her-auburn-eyes.livejournal.com]

I don't know if this belongs here. And I would like to start off by saying, I'm pro choice and I don't have anything against anyone who chooses to have an abortion. I just find I regret mine terribly. And it is eating me up inside.

I had an abortion nearly two years ago at 20 years old. I was scared and I didn't know what to do. I was afraid of what my parents would do. The partner I was with was unsupportive. The pregnancy felt like this alien creature I just wanted off of me. As soon as possible. I am a recovering addict and I was also occasionally abusing drugs at the time, but after the abortion my using skyrocketed and whether related or not, I have become very depressed.

Now days Im clean, but for the past year I have found myself obsessed with having a baby. I feel so much guilt. I calculate the days and think of how old my child would be if I had it, would it have been a boy or girl? Would it have his hair, my eyes? I was not prepared to take care of the kid, so logically I know it was the right choice. But I feel like I lost a piece of me along with the baby..the fetus..whatever. It is so difficult for me to be around children today. I can't stand it.

And I am so ashamed to admit this. But I have been lying to my partner about being on birth control. I know that is horrible. Maybe I feel like if I have a baby it will replace the guilt I have for the one I gave up. Either way, it is unfair to my partner.

I just needed to let this out, I guess.

Fear from Physical Abuse

[inmycrease.livejournal.com]

So I'm not good at formatting and don't know how to make a cut, So warning to those sensitive about abuse related subjects.


I was in a relationship for a few years that started off great and ended in a pretty nasty way. He told me that he had been suicidal in the past, was abusing alcohol, had unresolved psychological issues and began to abuse me both physically and verbally. It was hard to believe that someone I cared about so had changed so drastically and that I was scared to death of because of the absuse. I felt that I could have stayed in the relationship while he got the psychological help he needed, but the abuse was too much. That was almost 3 years ago and we have gone our separate ways... we are also geographically separated by many miles and are in no contact at all. I have been dating someone for the past year and a half who is amazing. I went to a psychologist and was able to sort out a lot of my feelings and feel that I am in a healthy loving relationship for all of the right reasons. Things couldn't be going better. I have one issue that I need help with and figured that this forum is so open and non judgmental and that maybe someone has gone through this also.

Anytime my boyfriend, or anyone for that matter touches my neck I freak out. This isn't a consious fear, it more or less catches me off guard, I gasp and I cower in fear. This stems from being abused in the past relationship where I was grabbed and strangled. I have told my boyfriend about the abuse from the very start of our relationship. I explained to him that I trust him fully and that I can't control my fear of being touched there. Even when my mom tried to put a necklace on me I did the same thing. Its not a premeditated fear, for instance I'm not afraid of the thought of someone touching me, but its a reactive fear...I react when it happens.He is very respectful of my space and wont touch my neck on purpose but occasionally his hand will land there in his sleep or if we are fooling around. It bothers me that he doesn't think that I trust him and I don't know how to explain this type of fear to him. Has anyone gone through this type of thing before and have any advice for me in terms of 1) how to work through this fear and 2) how to explain to him how its not him, but its me? I would like to someday get over this fear and don't know the best way to go about it.

Thanks so much in advance, and sorry for the novel! 

Strange cycle.

[shewho-laughs.livejournal.com]

I'm on day 17 of my cycle. I seem to always ovulate on day 14. This month, I've had some clear "fertile"-looking mucus days 11-13 but it wasn't as abundant as usual and stopped earlier than usual by several days. Today, I have cramps and back pain as though my period were coming, and I can smell blood when in the bathroom (period smell). I'm not terribly concerned about pregnancy. My last period was regular (started December 14). I've had sex twice since then, on the 19th and 21st. I am not on hormonal birth control, but we used condoms before any contact with no mishaps. I have been extraordinarily stressed out since right after my period ended. I am usually a very low-stress person. I also had no appetite whatsoever the week after my period ended and ate very little (unusual since I usually have a healthy appetite) and I'm thin to begin with (5'6" and 105 pounds).

Maybe my body tried to ovulate - or prepared to ovulate - but failed... does this seem possible?

Pain with tampons?!

[anonymouseee.livejournal.com]

 I've been having painful sex since around May (the same time I started having hemorrhoids) and have been tested and treated for (even when negative) BV and yeast. My most recent visit showed negative results for BV and yeast and also STIs. I have somewhat normal discharge, but sometimes a speck of green shows up, and that led me to believe it was BV but nope, the test indicated I was fine.

I'm on 3 month cycles of birth control, and just reached my withdrawal week. I've noticed that when I use a tampon, the opening of my vagina feels dry and almost slightly painful with the tampon in. Dry is the best word I can use to describe it. The tampon is a super but it is never dry and usually changed every hour and a half. I have noooo idea what this feeling is and whether or not there could be an issue outside of hemorrhoids. 

So, has anyone else experienced pain with that dry tampon feeling? Or pain with sex from hemorrhoids? I need some help. Thanks everyone.