(( VaginaPagina ))

Try and remember how strong you are. You're dealing with all of this (infertility, treatments, surrogate), and from what it sounds like, you've reached out for help from a therapist. That's a huge step, and deal, imo. I hope they get back to you ASAP-and I hope you find a therapist you like, because having someone there to hear you out, no matter what you say can be a great help. Hopefully they can also provide some ways to think about and handle this stress and situation.