I checked the memories on the website, and there are 2 entries that are similar to what I think I may be looking for, but I think this may be somewhat more severe? At any rate, I hope this isn't a waste of space.
I am really hoping someone here can help me, because I feel like I am going crazy and it's a terrible feeling. I am currently on Topamax, Buspar, Zoloft, Ativan, and Risperdal for OCD and "Bipolar" and/or what they are calling "psychosis," although they haven't diagnosed me with anything...
The problem is, I keep having these breakdowns... I have small breakdowns that are troublesome, but every so often I will have a really BAD breakdown, and lately I have been noticing a common trend. I have been keeping a record of when I have the worst breakdowns, per order of my psychiatrist, and now I was just sitting here at work looking at my calendar of when the breakdowns occur, and I just made the connection that the REALLY BAD breakdowns have occurred over the last eight months EXACTLY 3 days before I start my period, every time, exactly 3 days, to no fault. I have no idea how I did not notice this before now. I am just sitting here shaking my head in disbelief. I am not talking mood swings, or being grouchy, or just getting depressed or what not, I am talking I go absolutely out of my mind, psychotic, become another person, completely and totally lose it. It always happens at night, I will shake, cry, have a horrid panic attack, and just lose my mind for hours and hours on end. It is like I become another person. On more than one occasion I have been hospitalized for it.
Has anyone ever heard of this before? I mean, I never thought of myself as a person who got bad "PMS"... during my period I get bad cramps and what not, but this is insane... I mean, if this is a result of my period, I feel really trapped... I don't want this to happen every month for the rest of my life. I am already on way more medicine than I would even like to be on, and yet this is STILL happening to me? Do you think it has anything to do with my period? I mean, EXACTLY 3 days before cannot possibly be a coincidence.
The second I thought of this connection I called 3 of my doctors, all of which were not in today, and I have an appointment for tomorrow, so I am obviously not asking for a diagnosis from anyone, but I would like to hear if anyone has any experience with this or has heard anything, because I'd like to be able to go in tomorrow with something to say. I tried doing some searches on google but I'm not even sure what to type in as a search. PMS? Psychotic PMS? I'm so confused, argh.