To help you feel better, I'd suggest, hm, about three things:
1) Find some kind of topical ointment that will not irritate your skin and may help it. Apply gently according to the instructions and then leave it alone. Having something to put on that will help you heal should also remind you not to prod at it. Sticky and goopy may be a plus here. O:> If it's a minor anesthetic, that's also possibly useful.
(And yes, the tissue and labia around the vaginal opening can be very sensitive! It depends on how your nerves are arranged, but for some women, fingering and penetration is pleasurable because they have so many nerves there!)
2) Start socking away cash to get a third opinion. A dollar a day, $10 a week, whatever you can afford that won't pinch you too tightly.
3) Consider socking away cash to get it removed (and the skin tag, too, perhaps?) just for your peace of mind. If it's $300, at $40 a month, that's about 7-8 months, yes, but that's well within the "come back in a year" suggestion, so it's not likely that (even if it did become dangerous, which is unlikely) anything troubling would happen.
4) ...I said three, I was wrong... Take up something to do with your hands, such as crochet. When you feel like poking at your nethers to look at the thing, pick up the hook and yarn and crochet the heck out of a scarf or a potholder or afghan square. (Or take up fingernail biting; it's a perfectly addictive habit, trust me. *beth looks shiftyeyed and hides one hand behind her back*)
5) ...okay, I guess I can't count... Perhaps you might also set yourself a schedule. Grab a camera (cell-phone camera, digital camera, whatever) and just take a picture twice a month. Any changes, even if it were becoming cancerous, would tend to be very slow and irritating the area isn't going to do anything but mask any potential symptoms. Take the pictures, keep them in a file together, and you can review them every now and then to see if there are any changes, rather than going "was it that shape before? that size? I can't remember! It's growing!"
And good luck! I hope that something works out to reassure you!
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1) Find some kind of topical ointment that will not irritate your skin and may help it. Apply gently according to the instructions and then leave it alone. Having something to put on that will help you heal should also remind you not to prod at it. Sticky and goopy may be a plus here. O:> If it's a minor anesthetic, that's also possibly useful.
(And yes, the tissue and labia around the vaginal opening can be very sensitive! It depends on how your nerves are arranged, but for some women, fingering and penetration is pleasurable because they have so many nerves there!)
2) Start socking away cash to get a third opinion. A dollar a day, $10 a week, whatever you can afford that won't pinch you too tightly.
3) Consider socking away cash to get it removed (and the skin tag, too, perhaps?) just for your peace of mind. If it's $300, at $40 a month, that's about 7-8 months, yes, but that's well within the "come back in a year" suggestion, so it's not likely that (even if it did become dangerous, which is unlikely) anything troubling would happen.
4) ...I said three, I was wrong... Take up something to do with your hands, such as crochet. When you feel like poking at your nethers to look at the thing, pick up the hook and yarn and crochet the heck out of a scarf or a potholder or afghan square. (Or take up fingernail biting; it's a perfectly addictive habit, trust me. *beth looks shiftyeyed and hides one hand behind her back*)
5) ...okay, I guess I can't count... Perhaps you might also set yourself a schedule. Grab a camera (cell-phone camera, digital camera, whatever) and just take a picture twice a month. Any changes, even if it were becoming cancerous, would tend to be very slow and irritating the area isn't going to do anything but mask any potential symptoms. Take the pictures, keep them in a file together, and you can review them every now and then to see if there are any changes, rather than going "was it that shape before? that size? I can't remember! It's growing!"
And good luck! I hope that something works out to reassure you!