First, don't jump into a relationship until you're ready...and even then, you don't have to have sex just yet. If you find someone you want to be with...and they are a good person, they will try to be understanding and patient and not pressure you to do things you aren't ready to do.

I think you should get into counseling. You need to talk about everything that's happened to you in the past and you need to talk about how you feel now. Talking helps I think. It helps you not just face your fears but you'll learn ways to overcome them and hopefully live a more normal life without so much fear. It takes time though.

You're not alone.