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vaginapagina2005-06-29 10:59 pm
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Feeling wierd about SEX
I cant seem to find a sex problem community on live journal.. so I hope its ok to post this here for some advice..
I seem to have lost my sex drive..
I have been with my husband for 6 years.. we were married a month ago.. when we first met we were like rabbits.. for YEARS.. I was on BCP and I had an amazing sex drive.. everything was great.. then about 4 years into our relationship I started feeling guilty or dirty after sex.. or even thinking about sex.. I thought it had to do something with me going to church again.. we were engaged that summer and married like I said last month..
My husband is always horny.. and im not saying that in a bad way I promise.. during our two year engagement I would tell him that our sex life would go back to the way it was after we were married since I assumed the reason I didn’t want to have sex was because of the guilt from having sex before marriage.. blah blah blah.. well its been a month since I have been “allowed” to have sex.. (you know what I mean) and nothing has changed.. I STILL feel the same way I did before.
Now.. I am EXTREMELY attracted to my husband.. everything about him turns me on.. the way he smells.. looks.. you name it.. so I have severe attraction to him.. .... but as soon as we start making out and end up starting to have sex, I lose interest.. I feel like it’s the WRONG thing to do.. (as in its still a sin).. the weird thing is that I can masturbate often.. without FEELING guilty.. so I don't know why I feel this way.. The only things I can think of is the fact that our insurance is not 100% and im scared about getting pregnant and having a billion bills to pay.. (our insurance wont be 100% until January 2006.. right now its at 80%.). another issue is that I was diagnosed with hypothyroidism last March.. Now I know someone might say ‘maybe your sex drive has something to do with that’.. but I don't think so, since I get turned on enough to masturbate often.. but I am terrified of getting pregnant without me being stabilized.. the Dr. told me to be really careful until my levels were normal since it can cause all sorts of serious problems with the fetus.. (I am still working on getting me levels normal)
I'm just so tired of feeling this way.. I want to be able to make love to my husband and feel GREAT about it.. I feel so sad that he has to go to bed without it.. he is soooo good to me about it too.. he never makes me feel guilty.. and he is extremely lovable even when I deny him sex.. I also don't feel married.. we had lived together for 5 years so it feels like we are still boyfriend girlfriend and not husband and wife.. I am just hoping that someone might be able to give me some advice to my problem.. I would love to see a DR about it but unfortunately we don't have the means to do so yet.. so any good advice would be wonderful.. thanks..
I seem to have lost my sex drive..
I have been with my husband for 6 years.. we were married a month ago.. when we first met we were like rabbits.. for YEARS.. I was on BCP and I had an amazing sex drive.. everything was great.. then about 4 years into our relationship I started feeling guilty or dirty after sex.. or even thinking about sex.. I thought it had to do something with me going to church again.. we were engaged that summer and married like I said last month..
My husband is always horny.. and im not saying that in a bad way I promise.. during our two year engagement I would tell him that our sex life would go back to the way it was after we were married since I assumed the reason I didn’t want to have sex was because of the guilt from having sex before marriage.. blah blah blah.. well its been a month since I have been “allowed” to have sex.. (you know what I mean) and nothing has changed.. I STILL feel the same way I did before.
Now.. I am EXTREMELY attracted to my husband.. everything about him turns me on.. the way he smells.. looks.. you name it.. so I have severe attraction to him.. .... but as soon as we start making out and end up starting to have sex, I lose interest.. I feel like it’s the WRONG thing to do.. (as in its still a sin).. the weird thing is that I can masturbate often.. without FEELING guilty.. so I don't know why I feel this way.. The only things I can think of is the fact that our insurance is not 100% and im scared about getting pregnant and having a billion bills to pay.. (our insurance wont be 100% until January 2006.. right now its at 80%.). another issue is that I was diagnosed with hypothyroidism last March.. Now I know someone might say ‘maybe your sex drive has something to do with that’.. but I don't think so, since I get turned on enough to masturbate often.. but I am terrified of getting pregnant without me being stabilized.. the Dr. told me to be really careful until my levels were normal since it can cause all sorts of serious problems with the fetus.. (I am still working on getting me levels normal)
I'm just so tired of feeling this way.. I want to be able to make love to my husband and feel GREAT about it.. I feel so sad that he has to go to bed without it.. he is soooo good to me about it too.. he never makes me feel guilty.. and he is extremely lovable even when I deny him sex.. I also don't feel married.. we had lived together for 5 years so it feels like we are still boyfriend girlfriend and not husband and wife.. I am just hoping that someone might be able to give me some advice to my problem.. I would love to see a DR about it but unfortunately we don't have the means to do so yet.. so any good advice would be wonderful.. thanks..