haha it's so weird how alike our situations are... especially with orgasms.
one thing i worry about with the whole rape fantasy thing is that i want my fantasy to be a reality. that maybe if i was raped i would actually be turned on or something. i know how fucked up that sounds but i think maybe i am crazy liek that.

gosh, being able to have an orgasm thru sex would be awesome. i can't wait til the day it happens lol. i think the guy who FINALLY makes me orgasm like all the time will be the man i marry (j/k. . . i think. . )