I'm not physically disrespecting his boundaries, I just have guilt-burdens about wanting to disrespect his boundaries. I'm uncomfortable with how much I want to (and aware that that's irrational, but emotions are often irrational).

I've thought about masturbation as an aid, but I think I'm about as far as I'm comfortable with masturbation. Also, it's much less about the physiology at this point than it is about the relationship. It's like the masturbation-sex-issues are resolved, but I want to work on the relationship ones, if that makes sense?