*hug*
That's really awful, and I'm very sorry you had that experience. I've been there too, and I didn't have the support of a community like VP. You're a very strong woman, (and I'm sure a lot of other positive adjectives too!), and you have the control as to what happens now. Your body, your mind, your rules. Do what's best for you, not what other people think you should do.

Take your time healing, and know that you've got support!