I think everyone else here has given very good advice. First, I am so very sorry that this happened to you. You did not do anything wrong. This guy was in your graduate program, you had been friendly before, you didn't have any reason to think, "Gee, this guy is going to assault me tonight", which is why you trusted him and took it at face value when he said you were going to another party. How could you have known? This is not at all your fault.
As others have said, he misled you into going back to his apartment and you were clearly not in the shape to consent as you were crying and throwing up. I can't understand WHAT goes through the mind of somebody who would do such a thing to another person, but clearly he is the one with the distorted point of view, not you.
I echo everything others have said about getting counseling and taking care of yourself first. As for avoiding him, if you have at least one person in your program whom you trust as a confidante it might be helpful to tell them, that way they can behave as a social buffer between the two of you, making sure you can avoid each other in social events and helping you make an excuse to leave if you feel really uncomfortable around him. Sometimes it helps to have one person on your side.
It just makes me so angry that you have to avoid him at all. He is the one who has done something wrong, he is the one who should feel ashamed of his actions.
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As others have said, he misled you into going back to his apartment and you were clearly not in the shape to consent as you were crying and throwing up. I can't understand WHAT goes through the mind of somebody who would do such a thing to another person, but clearly he is the one with the distorted point of view, not you.
I echo everything others have said about getting counseling and taking care of yourself first. As for avoiding him, if you have at least one person in your program whom you trust as a confidante it might be helpful to tell them, that way they can behave as a social buffer between the two of you, making sure you can avoid each other in social events and helping you make an excuse to leave if you feel really uncomfortable around him. Sometimes it helps to have one person on your side.
It just makes me so angry that you have to avoid him at all. He is the one who has done something wrong, he is the one who should feel ashamed of his actions.
Take care.